Mirel Goldstein, MS, MA, LPC is an award-winning, licensed therapist with 20+ years of clinical experience and is a published author.
When Your Defenses Become Your Personality
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When Your Defenses Become Your Personality Sometimes the traits we learned early in life to survive — being “nice,” “strong,” “funny,” “independent” — become the very things people love and expect from us. We get praised for them. Rewarded for them. Identified with them. But what if they aren’t just natural parts of who we are? What if once upon a time these traits were defenses — ways to cope, adapt, and stay safe in a world that didn’t always give us what we needed or meet us where we were at? In therapy, I often sit with clients who wonder: If I grow, if I change, if I let go of being “the easy one” or “the strong one,” will the people around me still recognize me? Still accept me? Still love me? When your defenses have become your identity, change doesn’t just feel risky — it can feel disloyal. Disloyal to the version of yourself that got you through the hardest times. Disloyal to the image others have come to expect. But the truth is: You are not betraying anyone by transforming. You are allowed to become more of yourself — and of the parts that bring you alive. Therapy invites us to honor the defenses that protected us and to imagine who we might be without being so bound by them. It’s not about discarding the old self; it’s about gently expanding who we’re allowed to be. You’re allowed to change. Even if others aren’t ready. Even if you’re still learning how to be ready yourself. Because your wholeness matters more than your consistency. |
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Mirel Goldstein, MS, MA, LPC is an award-winning, licensed therapist with 20+ years of clinical experience and is a published author.
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